„Don’t turn around“, you say to me. Pulling me closer to you.
“Where should I look, but at you?“, I ask.
I don’t say more about what I’m thinking, you know, we both know.
Time is speeding, the time in which it’s just us two. Nobody else. The cursor of this watch is beside your eyes, all I see.
Cruelly, it’s moving forward, there’s no sound.
Laying my head on your shoulder,
I breathe in all your heat.
Fighting against the urge, to look at the cursor. Again.
As brutal as it’s moving, intensive pain in my chest.
My throat is closing up, even tighter.
I wonder how I’m still able to sit up but
I know, it’s you who’s holding me up. Guilt is rising inside of me, shouldn’t it be me,
who’s holding you?
Our time is running, too fast it’s running from us.
All towards the moment, when they will come,
to give us a few minutes. Minutes!
My hands are shaking, I don’t know how to control myself, up from here.
I want to scream, but remain silent.
“I love you”, is all I have to say.
I want to cry, but I know that will hurt you more.
“I love you”, tears are running down my cheeks.
Unable to stop them.
You hold me up so I can stand.
Without you, I cannot stand straight.
But I must.
Until our time stands still.
Until this watch doesn’t tick any longer, silently.
I want our eternity.
Until this damn clock is shot down for all time.